Dear heartbreak...

How long have I been avoiding you... how long has it been since you first affected me... why am I pretending that you are not there... when the heart breaks it can change some... those who were hopeless romantics, the ones who still believed in true love... they can be lost in a world where they don't feel love ever again. I know that a broken heart is something that takes time to heal, but how long till I can hold some one and feel the love when they hold me back? When can I get lost in someones eyes again, when can I loose my breathe when they walk in the room? It has been years since I have allowed my heart to feel that again... I know how to show my love for someone, I know all of the cute little thing I can do for someone special... but only once have I ever felt that... only once have I ever meant it with all my heart. Is it because I didn't love the others? No, I loved them but the romantic within me had died by then. I am sorry to the ones who know the pain... to those who have felt the wings of true love broken... when you loose yourself to a dark feeling of nothing. I am sorry for the ones who have been betrayed and lied to... to those who lost the one they loved, and then lost themselves. Is it possible to find the innocence again, to loose yourself in their eyes... can broken wings be mended, can my heart beat again... I want to feel again, I want to love again... I want to be free from this everlasting pain in knowing that its me who prevented the other relationships from continuing... my fears of pain and loss, my dream of darkness... someday I will be free from this... someday I will find myself again... someday I will love again... I believe these things are possible... until then, I pray... for the broken, the lost, and the fallen... Love is the answer... and the journey to freedom and love is the path of healing... remain open my brothers and sisters... love always finds a way to bring us out of the darkness... one day... Love